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2006-10-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

im so happi todae. got back triple science and chinese and i wld say these papers managed to meet my expectations and i dint do as badly as i tot i would!!

well...went to sch a bit earlier to go and collect CLT forms from the ppl, and met ks! so good he got study leave now, at least can study in peace rather than me when i was muggin for EOYs everyday still hav to come school. goodluck ks!! all the best for your practicals next week and ur coming O levels! well, if u decide to go to rjc, i cant stop you, but jus dun regret kay!

so first up was bio paper... bio has been my best subject, so i was sort of expectin a lot to be honest >< myself =")" 5 =")">< far =")" mcq ="(" papers =")">< and tmr is maths and english. im worried bout eng...gonna determine whether i get my 1.00, and i dun hav a good feelin bout it!

haiz mus start to write stupid testimonial le. nt sure when to hand up, but i tink is wednesday rite? oh well then i shall do tmr, or maybe later if i get to siann.

went to play streetcourt in the middle of those paper checkin! dint play for a long long time, but it was rather fun. but the haze was stupid. REAL STUPID.

2006-10-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

ahhh at last my butt is planted on my chair again.

jus came home from a rather long shoppin trip >< went out at bout 12+ to marina square and man has that place changed. its DAMN big and has a lot of shops...i was basically keepin my eye out for shirt/shoes. nid to get them for grad nite kay. so my mum, me and my bro were like browsing thru most of the stores. my brother was being an ass as always. then after walkin like for 2h+ at marina sq, we went PS to walk somemore! haha then went to gelare to eat...tiramisu is nice =)

my body is partly achin from badminton ytd. i would guess cos i had not being exercising much. i must build up my fitness kay, got napfa on the 16th november. well i jus dun quite understand some ppl. they can be so irritatin at time and immature. i dun understand wat fun they see in doin those things they do. well, jared and yuhan really ought to change. they are just lookin at things so superficially that they piss ppl off. but ohwell, lets hope they change soon.

i tink the CLT issue has more or less been settled. I HOPE. haiz...some ppl are so indecisive. to think i wld even miss going to Korea for family trip just becos of CLT course, without even tinking twice. and some ppl can tell me i tink my family going holland, i mus confirm, or tell me "u go then i go". BLOODY HELL LA U NO BRAIN OF UR OWN AR. are u such a loser u cant even decide for urself. CANT EVEN TELL ME A YES OR A NO. IF U DUN WAN JUST TELL ME SO! grrr, im going to explode sooner or later, but as always i kept my calm durin the meeting. NOT FORGETTIN SOME BASTARDS TURN UP SO LATE FOR THE MEETING. "wahlao...no partC still call us go so early". wow such a nice statement. i wonder why i hold it so earli aniway. DUNNO HU TELL ME 11 WAN TO GO OPEN HOUSE AND SEE THE DANCE. DUNNO WHICH BASTARDS. then tell u meeting at 8, can come at 8:45. u tink very fun ar...come late still can say go canteen eat first. well u gotta change ur attitude man people.

aniway, tmr gettin back papers le... triple science and chinese i guess? i hope i dun do tat badly. i have high expectations =) dunno wat im goin to do after paper checkin. so SIAN nowadays. got nth to do at all lo.

ahh i had quite an enjoyable bdae on the 12th =) thanks jared and co for their present and sinyee, kaiqing and dan for spendin the day together! long time since we met up like tat le, and i hope we can come out more often durin the holidays jus to stone and chat! at least tat beats lazin around at home...and saves phone bill! went to watch world trade centre at PS...i would say ppl wld emerge out of the theatre with mixed feelings after watchin this movie. if u were able to FEEL for the plot, i guess it would be a meaningful show. i was touched, but not those type of crying touched. i was touched by the unity of the americans and the jubilation they had when they managed to rescue their comrade. its those type of sacrificial spirit that makes the world a better place to live in.

i nid to pass the stuff to you soon. and i promised i would pass it to u b4 u did.

2006-10-11T18:14:00.000+08:00

okk...this blog is back up and runnin!

im wondering i should keep this blog open. i realli wan to hav a place where i can vent all my thoughts into. for now, it shall be closed. for those hu noe this blog, please dun tell others kay =) until i decide to let my feelings be known.

aniway tmr's the LAST PAPER for EOY le. THE VERY VERY VERY VERY LAST ONE. i hope i dun screw up. i wan my 1.00 kay >< and chinese is the one im most worried bout. and tmr is paper 1, which isnt very easy to score in. after reading 应用文 and 作文 for hours on ends todae, im quite sick of chinese. ARGH i mus endure kay.

spend the whole of todae at home slack stonin and muggin.

had quite a nice chat last nite. at least i found someone i could really share my thoughts... and it did help to make me feel better. but at the same time i feel weird. like: why am i dumping all these stuffs to someone tat is unrelated to the whole incident at all. it jus isnt me to do tat. oh well, at the time when i feel walls are being placed even in front of my closest friends, this came at the rite time. i really really dun understand why things hav to turn out this way. wasn't it all fun and laughter b4? it is really heartwrenching. i dun wan to lose it, but it seems im destined to lose it. my life is collapsing. i placed too much stake on this single circle of life and now tat the circle has deserted me i find it hard to piece myself together. and it couldnt happen at a better time we are about to change environment and put our friendship to the ultimate test. to quote, "would u still rmb who i am 10 years down the road". the ones hu shared so much hardship tears and sweat together...

i shall go read a bit of chinese later.

haiz why mus ppl always put up the image that other wan to see? why must ppl always care bout wat others think bout them? why must even my so-called closest peers leave me when its time we rally together? the world is such a pain to live in when u find no interest in life. jus tink bout it, wat do u do when u are free? at least u have a passion an interest and something u can be glad while u are doing it. now imagine the same life without all these. wun it be such a bore.

friendships come and go. i jus hope for one that last forever. just one. i have had enough of temporary friendship. there are just too many things tat disrupt a friendship. too too too many. love, money, life, habits, passion. ahh fuck it.